TOPS Week 2

 I'm going to start off with things I did well this week:

1) I stayed away from soda when I really, really wanted a glass. Sometimes my stomach gets upset and soda calms it down immediately, but I stayed away and for that I'm proud of myself

2) I had a moment this week where I was upset. I was in the midst of shoving food in my mouth as quickly as I could when the TOPS pledge came to mind, 'I will remember, even though I overeat in private, my excess poundage is there for all the world to see." This thought made me put down what I was eating.

Struggles this week:

1) I had to go to the doctor. In the notes on the computer was a section that reads "Underlying health issues." In that section it said, "Class 2 Obesity." That was sobering. I still tear up thinking about it. I've never been this heavy and I am so disappointed in myself. 

2) I'm afraid to fail therefore I'm afraid to set goals. If I don't set a goal then I can't fail. I'm struggling to make goals that will ensure I succeed. My current goals are completely attainable and don't require me to fight very hard for it. When did I lose my will to fight?

3) This week I had a goal of stretching. I didn't set a number of days to that goal and because of that I didn't do it as often as I should have.


This week's meeting focused on making goals. I'm trying to convince myself I can do this. 

I gained weight this week. I'm not shocked because last week's loss was a pretty substantial one. Overall I'm at a loss of 3lbs for which I'm still proud.

Overall:

Physical- Gained .6

Emotional- Rough. Still not moved into the house

Health- Pretty beat up. Had a trip to the doctor this week.

Goals- Not to the level it should have been

Focus for this week:

Make goals, even if they are hard.

Measure my body. I need to "see" some loss, not just look at the scale.


Probably not the best food choice, but it was yummy.







Comments

  1. StephanieJanuary 13, 2022 at 1:27 PM

    I am in a similar boat as you. I have gained 1/2 the weight back that I lost originally before Covid. You are inspiring me. We CAN do this.

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    1. Ebert97January 13, 2022 at 1:59 PM

      Thanks, Steph. Sure miss you. Would love to hear what you are hoping to do to get back on track. ❤️

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  2. Dorine Doyle KingJanuary 14, 2022 at 12:39 PM

    Congratulations on making progress not perfection! We all struggle with all those things! I just finished my SMART goals homework, and updated my weekly goal calendar. One of my SMART goals is to plan for snacking in my day. I grocery shopped with this in mind and put together a great veggie platter (in Tupperware - my Tupperware Lady would be so proud!) and am making a batch of hummus - thus, my snacking for the week, is ready for me.

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