What purpose?
Today I feel like quitting. I feel defeated and depressed. These feelings aren't new to me, but a number of circumstances figure into this equation to make me want to just give it all up. From a friend that doesn't seem to want to talk with me any longer to a body that KNOWS it has been on this earth for 40 years, today is a day to give up. For 10 months now I have been on a journey to get into better health. I began this journey at the largest amount of weight I have ever weighed. I began this journey at what should have been one of the highest points in my life. I began this journey knowing that if I didn't make a change, the baby I had just brought into the world would have children that would never know me. I began this journey in desperation. I have had moments of triumph along the way and I have had moments of despair, but this morning I have had a moment of revelation. Why am I doing this? Why am I torturing myself? I like eating whatever food I want and I disl